Ah, that feeling of starting over. From scratch. It's a bit scary, but also exciting. This past year was filled with lots of new beginnings, stepping out of comfort zones and starting over. That feeling of uncertainty each and every day not only made me sick to my stomach but eager and anxious to see where this new life was going to take me.
A brand new house meant all new furniture and décor. Of course, hubby wasn't too thrilled about that part. His, "why do we need new furniture" question rang in my ear daily. My reply, "Because we just do." But really it was because I watched too many Fixer Upper episodes.
Starting over, also meant new jobs and people in our lives. Both of which we needed badly. The idea of trying to make new friends at 30 years old was a bit intimidating. How do you even go about that? Do we join Tinder and say we are looking for friendships? Is that a thing? Luckily, Tinder was never needed and amazing friendships have started to blossom on their own.
This new beginning of ours started because my husband received a job offer. Something he had been wanting for a while. There was no way we could say no, even if we both were scared. The job search did not start off as well for me as for him. As much as I wanted a new start and place to live, I cried for a good portion of the beginning, every day.
After a few months of trying to adjust to all this newness, other things started falling into place. I stepped out of my comfort zone and started working as a substitute teacher at a Primary School in my town. I had been a substitute teacher before during undergrad and knew it was something I was very capable of doing. However, the whole "new" school, new teachers thing scared me.
Within a week of subbing, I found my home at the Primary School. My love and appreciation for the entire staff is crazy. I have never felt more at home than I do there. Another job offer came to me when an amazing website reached out to see if I would be interested in writing and moderating for them. My answer "absolutely" could not come out of my mouth fast enough.
It feels as though since our move and starting over, things have been falling into place. And now because we are in a New Year, I felt I needed to make other changes. I decided to delete my previous blog and create a whole new site. It was a bittersweet feeling. I created my first blog in March of 2017, after my endometriosis diagnosis. But these last few months have helped me realize I am so much more than just my illness. I have so much more I want to share and talk to the world about. I have bigger dreams, more ideas and exciting plans. I felt I couldn't share these things on there. It felt sad and restricted. My hope with my new site is to continue to raise awareness but also leave you feeling happy and able to talk about so many other things.
Fresh starts can be scary, but you never know what amazing things can come out of starting over. So be brave, take that chance and turn all the ugly in your life, into something beautiful.
What is a fresh start you would like to make in this New Year?
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